All I can do is laugh..

And when I thought things couldn't possibly be worst, I get rear ended. Lol. God really has a sense of humor. Luckily, I'm ok and the other person was ok. My car has minor scratches etc. I've had a headache and neck and back pain since it happened so that's not good. Guess my friend was right... You gotta hot rock bottom before you can pick yourself up. Can't pick yourself up while your falling.

**popped some tylenol, off to rest**

Xoxo



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Once again..

Once again it feels like my life is in a downward spin.. Just when I think things will finally for once get better, they worsen.

Things with B and I haven't been the greatest but we've made the best of it. We were getting a long a lot better, he was being sweeter, etc. Well, 2 weeks ago he got a call from his job saying he needs to move to LA in January.. Just like that.. With one phone call everything that we had planned was gone. I've moved before to be with him.. 8 hours away from my family to be exact and to this day I regret that move. Luckily, now I am closer to my family. A move to California just isn't in the cards for me.. I don't want to live THAT far from my family. I love him and I am devastated all of this is happening but I just cant do it.. Something inside of me is holding me back.. UGH.. I just want to scream..

As of March, I will have to move out of our condo and find a place on my own for my son and I. This will be a new experience for me considering I have never lived alone. Although it will be exciting, I am scared shitless.. I have 3 months to save up enough money for the deposits for an apartment and to put utilities in my name. PLUS, I have no furniture what-so-ever. All of this is so sudden. It's weird to describe how I feel.. Part of me is cool, calm, and collected and the other part of me is freaking out.. There is never a dull moment in my life.. I repeat, NEVER..

Family is the best medicine..

After work today, we drove 2 hrs to my moms house. Except for the craziness in this house, I love coming to visit. I miss living here. I miss our late night conversations over some delicious cafe con leche. ::sigh:: Theres nothing more fulfilling than family. I am truly blessed..

I hope everyone enjoys their thanksgiving. I know I will.

Gobble, Gobble..

Xoxo


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Oh how I love thee...

My little rockstars new cut..:)










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My blog needs a makeover..

Ok.. So, My blog needs a MAJOR makeover. I have no idea where to start.. I want to change the background and make a banner.. How the hell do I do that? Any suggestions?

::Sigh::

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I had to. I saw these a while back on Mayk's blog and I fell in love. They are the perfect combination of a boot and a sandal. They make my feet happy. :) AND I got them on sale. I live in Miami so I can wear these babies year round. I should have the other pair tmrw. I will make sure to post a pic of those too.

XOXO

Patiently waiting..

Ahhhh Yesss... These babies will be mine next week.. I've been wanting some black platform pumps for a while and since my broke ass can't afford the YSL tribute pumps, I will settle for these.. Besides, they were half off and I picked them up for $65.00. Feels good to get a great deal. I am praying to the shoe gods that A.) they fit atleast a little comfy, and B.) They get here before Thanksgiving. I want to wear them for Thanksgiving Dinner at my moms. :) Wooohooo... Can't wait..

On a different note. I've been obsessing over Balenciaga bags.. I want one SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad I can taste it. I spend 2 hours the other day on Purseblog.com looking at pictures of them in all different colors and styles. I really like the City one and the First. I'll take any color. I actually LOVE the mustard yellow one. I found one on Yoogiscloset.com but there is no way in hell I can afford it. ::Sigh:: One day.. :) I am confident that I will have one. I need to get out there and look in vintage stores, etc. I doubt I'll find one but it's worth a shot. :)

Gotta get back to work. Hope everyone is having a FABULOUS day.

XOXO

I know I can.. Be what I want to be.

Another day goes by and I have not taken a step towards my future. I know what I want to do.. I have it all planned out but somehow, I can't get it to work out. For as long as I can remember, I've had a passion for fashion, beauty, makeup, etc. Well, After thinking long and hard about what I see myself doing for the rest of my life. (Well, for some of it, anyway.) and I come to one Conclusion. Becoming a Hairstylist. With that being said, don't think I want to work at Super Cut's or Some little whole in the wall salon. (No offense to anyone who works at either or.)I have my sights set on bigger things. I want to go to the Aveda Institute. Work my way up to a high end salon, build my clientele. Make $$$. I don't ever EVER want to have to depend on anyone to pay my stuff. I want to know that I can hold things down on my own for me and my little man. This is my dream.. ::Finish hair school, get some experience and build up a portfolio and a name for myself, get involved some how in the Fashion industry, move to NY, work for a high end salon, get a little small apartment in the city for me and little man, work, make my money and only grow from there.. I DREAM of moving to NY. It's been my dream since middle school. It's SOOO me.. I love it.. Wait. That's now where my great PLAN ends.. After graduating from Hair school. I'd like to continue my College education and go to school to become an RN. Yes.. I know. Two TOTALLY opposite ends of the spectrum.. But HEY, you can never have TOO much knowledge.. Right? ;)

Flashing, lights, lights....

Soooo... I'm going to Vegas. :) I'm sooooooo excited. It'll be my first time going and I am ecstatic. The company I work for will have a booth at the CES expo. Basically an expo to showcase cool electronics. Well, we seek an E-reader and the theme of the booth is going to be a person reading our reader on a plane. Well, they were going to hire a model to be greet people at the booth and give info. My manager suggested they take me instead. I'm pretty, know the product, and would be great interacting with people. So she brought it to their attention and they loved it. :) it's. Great opportunity for me. I'll get to meet the top dogs in the company along with all the people we deal with on a daily basis that are in the UK. Anywho, I'm excited. :)

Till next time. <3

-J

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"I want yo mouth, give me that becky"

I swear this song is so awesome. LMAO. Something about his is sexy.. Not sure what it is.. Hmmm..

Today wasn't that great. Tmrw will be better..

(This was written yesturday but couldn't post till today)

Today was kind of blah... Work was extremely slow which gave me a lot of extra time to think WAY too much about things that I really have no control over. For some reason, the past keeps finding it's way back to me. I wont lie, it's nice to sit and reminesce on old times. The way things were and could have been. Then I catch myself and think, wait.. The past is the past for a reason. Right? There is a reason this past is not in my present. Is it because it was never meant to be and it just happened? (we were never meant to be, baby we just happened. -Kanye West) Or due to a lack of effort and maturity?? Either way, it's the past. A chapter in my life I wish had never ended but did and now must move on. While I'm talking about past and present, I was really daydreaming about being in a time machine today. I wish I could go back 3 years. Knowing what I kbow now!! Sssshhhiiiiiiittttttt!!!! Lol I'd be on top of my game for sure.

Have you ever made a sacrifice for someone whom you thout would do the same only to find out you were wrong? Well, that's how I've felt for almost 2 Years now. Let me give a little insight, when B and I met, we lived on different cities. About 2 hours away from eachother. I was trying to love, baby daddy wasn't having it so we had to take it to court. Long story short, I was denied relocating. I hired a different attorney and disputed the case. Meanwhile, I was laid off at my job leaving me jobless and living at my moms. While unemployed, I found a new love for makeup. I've always been fascinated by the art of makeup but at this point in time, this is what I wanted to do. I wanted to become a makeup artist. I was determined. I had a friend who worked at the local MAC counter so I went and applied there. The manager said she didn't have N opening but would keep my application. Then my friend told me about a new counter opening. This what it, I was going to get this job. I called, I kid you not, about 4 times a week telling them to interview me. I told them they needed to interview me, and that I was the person for the spot. Lol a bit cocky. :) I got an interview and nailed it. I nailed every interview after that. I jumped thru hoops, and loops and rings of fire for this job. Well, they offered it to me. I happily accepted. I hadn't started at the counter and baby daddy calls me to tell me he is moving and he was ready to sign the papers agreeing to me moving too. You can not imagine how I felt. Either I took the job and didn't move with B or I moved with B and gave up on this job I wanted so bad. Well, by now it's obvious which route I took. I kick myself in the ass everyday for that stupid decision. I gave up my dream to be with a man who painted me a beauitiful picture and when I got there, the picture was tainted. I gave up my passion to be with someone who I thought would make me happy and all he did was push me away. Ugh. The decisions we make in life are so important. I wish I had gone with my gut feeling. I had second thoughts but was blinded by the thoughts of what my life would be like if I moved with him. Ugh. Sorry. Had to vent. Been bottled inside for a whole.

-J

How I want to feel about someone one day..

Love this song.

This song was on Pandora. I really like it.

Heather Headley - I Wish I Wasn't
by lachula

Boo.

Yes.. This is my pumpkin. :) Well, little man and B carved it last night while I was busy cooking Arroz con Gandules. Sooo delic.. I'm really excited about Halloween. Little man is going to be Ghost Rider and we have lot's of activities planned. The town we live in is having a costume parade and arts a crafts, etc. Oh, how could I forget to mention a Halloween Block party.. How awesome is that? I'm more excited than he is. lol Little man also got invited to 2 Birthday parties this weekend at the park near our house on the beach. We will make an appearance for a little bit. I plan on enrolling him in beach flag football this week and I believe Sunday morning is when they practice. He's excited about that. I haven't really been able to enroll him in activities so I'm finally getting around to it. I love seeing him have fun. It's so fulfilling. I gotta get to work. Got lot's to do today. JOB SECURITY. ;)

Almost forgot, I also will be getting my little Zoe a costume. :) You know I'll be posting pics.

♥

Best things in life aren't things..

Ahhh.. Finally, a few minutes to update my blog. I’m thinking about getting the blog press app for my iphone again. I had it before but while doing an update, I lost it. **wooommp, wooommp, wooommp** I have been really sick for the past week and a half. SUCKS HORRIBLY. I really thought I was going to cough out a lung last week. I was coughing so hard I almost puked. (Gross, I know.. True story though.)

Anywho, This past weekend was pretty good, I took little man to the Pumpkin patch. It was so much fun. I took so many pictures of him with the pumpkins, petting the animals, horse riding. J It was awesome. After that, we went to the park for a bit. It was a nice, fun filled day with my little man. Being a mom I can honestly say is one of the most fulfilling things in my life. I love waking him up in the morning to get him ready for school, I love packing his lunch. I love him more than I ever thought I was capable of loving. He keeps me going. He is my ammunition to want to better myself and the quality of our lives. My everything.

♥

Very nicely put...

forty-five thoughts for my daughter and my virtual daughters
By Francesca Lia Block.

i always believed if i had blond hair, pixie face
big breasts
everything would be all right
not realizing that culturally idolized beauty
is not only foolproof
but potentially dangerous

if you believe in your own unconventional beauty
when you are young
you will accomplish twice as much and suffer half so

turn off lightbulbs and light a candle

walk don’t drive

plant a tree

wear sunscreen

dancing is an antidepressant

kindness is the new status symbol

every day please try to eat something green
and something orange
that grow out of the ground

tell me how mad you are
that your father and i parted
i will always listen
though i can’t ever take away the pain

expectations are for what you yourself create

they rarely work when applied to others

turn off the television

tv is a depressant

yoga is an antidepressant

don’t feel guilty about wanting pretty things

they would not be so alluring
if you weren’t supposed to want them
just don’t value them over compassion

use your words even when you are a grown-up
and people no longer think it is entirely acceptable
when you say, that hurt my feelings

if you can digest chocolate eat it sometimes

same goes for ice cream
(i don’t really need to tell you those things do i?)

do your homework because it is part of the game but

don’t spend too much time worrying about grades

fall in love with someone kind who loves your body
and your mind

if you have a dream that won’t let you go, that
tickles your solar plexus, heed it

turn dark feelings into paintings or poetry
or dancing

music is a kind of food

if you are sad talk to a happy woman who loves you
it will always help

move your body when you are sad or angry

avoid the following:
genetically modified ingredients
parabens
sodium lauryl sulfate
mercury in certain fish
neurotic thoughts about food
(is that a contradiction?)

love your curls though they tangle
your pale skin though it can burn in the sun
your nose though it is broader than some
your sturdy legs and feet

forget barbie she does not possess imagination

remember you are a botticelli angel

the planet we live on is perfection

love her like a goddess

love yourself as her daughter

there is a planet full of different kinds of beauty

the idea that only one type of woman is beautiful
is blasphemy

of everything i brought to the world in these
forty-five years
you and your brother are by far the most astounding

because of this i will always love your father

matter never vanishes, only changes

remember that when someone you love dies

your round head on my breast when you were born
is the memory
i will keep with me when i leave this body

when i am gone i will still be near you

this is how i know: when you were born
it was not a meeting
but a reunion

Feeling a little inspired.

For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin -- real life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first,
some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.
At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.
So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination. - Souza


I Believe...
That just because two people argue,
doesn't mean they don't love each other..
And just because they don't argue,
doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...
That we don't have to change friends if
we understand that friends change.

I Believe...
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in
a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I Believe...
That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...
That it's taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...
That you should always leave loved ones with
loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe...
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...
That we are responsible for what
we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe...
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be
done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...
That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best
time.

I Believe...
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be
the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had,
and what you've learned from them.....and less to do with how many birthdays
you've celebrated.

I Believe...
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others..
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your
grief.

I Believe...
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...
That you shouldn't be so eager to find
out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...
Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally
different.

I Believe...
That your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...
That even when you think you have no more to give, if
a friend cries out to you........you will find the strength to help.

I Believe...
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being
I saw this today and thought I would share.


I Believe...
That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I Believe...
That you should send this to all of the people that you believe in.
I just did.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything;
They just make the most of everything.
Thank you God for all the wonderful people who help us throughout the
journey of life.

New beginnings.

Goodmorning blog world. It's 6:57 am and I am sitting in my car outside of my new job. :) besides the fact that I am an hour early, I am very very excited. What a blessing it was to be able to find such a great position. The schedule is Monday thru Friday from 8 to 5. Gives me so much more time to be a mommy and a gf. Love it. No more tacky orang uniform at hoots. As much ad I thought I liked that place, I've learned to hate it. The people that work there, the managers, the people that eat there. Just not my place. The money when I started working there was pretty good but as of lately it hasn't been that way. Anywho, I wanted to post a small blog while I sat sipping on my coffee. ;)

Im always early to everything. I left my house expecting traffic. Fortunately there was none. Wishing everyone a fabulous Tuesday.

Xoxo
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My munchkin goes back to school today.

As much as I enjoyed him having the summer off, I'm so glad things will be back to "normal" now. :) I'm anxious to meet his new teacher. Hopefully this year it's a better one than last year. Last night I felt like the best mom in the world. Last minute, I ran to Target to get him a bakpack and a lunchbox. Mind you, his dad told me 3 weeks ago he bought him a lunchbox and was sending it. Surprise, surprise, I never got anything. Anywho, I was at target and luckily I found him a clone wars backpack. THEN., I walked over to the lunchbox section and seeing it was half empty I thought I'd have to come back in a few weeks, WRONG.. There it was, the last clone wars lunchbox. Lol I felt so lucky. It worked out because I just bought him a clone wars Jedi insulated thermos cup. I kbow, I'm a dork but being a mommy, these things make you happy because you know that when you kid sees it, it'll make them happy. So right now, I'm a half awake ball of happiness. Lol :) we went shoe shopping yesterday too and got some great deals at Marshall. well, I'm off to take him to school. Hope everyone has a fabulous Monday.






$42.00 for both. How sweet is that!?? :)

Ugh. My munchkin is getting soooo big. Going into first grade already..



My <3..

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Gotta have a sense of humor.

Hello blog world. Hope everyone is doing great. I have been ok. Been better. This past weekend was a nightmare. :( I crashed my car. Totalled it. Well, everyone thinks it's totalled but in waiting on the insurance adjuster to take a look. What's worst is the accident was my fault. I took a light. Not purposely. Good news is everyone involved is ok. It couldve been way way worst. I may be getting a new car if my cars totalled. :) that's the positive outcome. I'm excited about that. Hopefully this whole situation proves to have a reason. Maybe a blessing in disguise. Who knows. Only time will tell.

Xoxo


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There is a first time for everything.. Right?

So, After reading a TON of blogs, I've decided to start one myself. (I'm easily inspired) Besides, a lot has been going on in my life lately and I could really use some venting.

I should probably introduce myself, I am 22 years young. I have a son who is my ALL. Everything I do is for him. I am engaged. Not sure when the wedding will be. Not in a rush to tie the knot. Just taking it a step at a time. I have a passion for quite a few things. I love fashion, makeup, art, nature, music, and the list goes on. I plan on going to the Aveda institute and becoming a hair dresser. It's something I think I would enjoy. I also plan on going back to school eventually and becoming an RN. I know. COMPLETE opposite career paths but I want to make sure that I have something to fall back on. I enjoy makeup, hair, etc but no matter how shitty the economy is, there will always be a nursing job open. Know what I mean? Besides, I am still young. I have my whole life ahead of me.

Anywho, gotta run. I think I may take a nap or something. :)

Till next time..